TO GET THERE, I MUST GO THROUGH FIRST

As I sit and begin to think about my recent times of being a christian, there was never a time that I could say that I did not have trials along the way. From the times of being molested,lost of loved ones,migrating to a foreign country and finding out who I really was in God were all challenging. I have encountered some bumps and some deep holes, but somehow it was not meant for me to stay on those bumps or to remain in those holes I encountered. I know that nothing great is ever accomplished without a few challenges along the way. Sometimes you probably feel the same way as I do and ask why do I have to go through the things that I do or right now? I am reminded that when I gave my life over to God, that meant everything and that he can do whatever He wants because I could't run my life any more on my own. Literally, that means that I, Lorneka, can no longer call the shots in my life and I must deny all my rights and let him to do as he pleases. To my amazement, I didn't know how or when this was going to happen, but let me tell you that its taking place at great extents.

Don't get me wrong I am not saying that God only gives me seasons of pain and trials, there have been and are now many days of spring flowers from Him. But first, He had to bring to the end of myself.Last night as I was getting ready for bed this analogy was brought to my spirit. When we become christians and confess our sins to live a new life, its like you had the key to a door, it only was able to fit when I forced it to work and that was only for a short period of time that it stayed open. From time to time I would take the key and make it work when I wanted to, but GOD is saying to let Him hold the key and let him open it when he wants to, the way he wants and how He wants to. And when the door is open there is no more forcing it and trying to turn it in such a way so it will remain open. Also when He opens it no man, woman,boy,girl or spirit can close it. Now that I have given him access and the password to my life which is JESUS- there is no more manipulation and Life is grand!!!!

The daily trials of life try to paralyze me, but they will not prosper. I am to the point in my life where I have to encourage myself constantly in order to remain strong in the Lord. Is it a fight? Yes it is, but in the end I am victorious. Let us remember that before Jesus was called to the cross he endured some disturbing things here on earth with mankind. But like Him, I don't want a few bumps and holes stop me from where I am going. So if we are like him, made in the image of our heavenly FATHER, we too, shall be persecuted, lied on, cheated on, used and abused, cursed out and even be labeled as things that we are not.Whatever those tests are, know that "everything is working out all for your good." As we speak, God is using his key to allow my family to not understand me and what I believe, he is allowing people to lie on me and to not defend myself, my finances to go throught a tight period and for tasks on my job to become complex to see what I will do. In doing so, he is waiting to see if I will quit or believe his word for my life or to walk in the fact that HE told me he would never give me more than I can bear.I already know where I want to go but he knows the right paths.

To get there, I must go through. Where is there?
-For me, there is..to become a radical woman of God, I must go through as a christian.
-There.. to minister and disciple others, I must first be discipled and mentored by someone who knows how to disciple and take correction when necessary
-To get to pharmacy school and become a pharmacist, I must go through on my job as a technician and carry out someone else's vision
-To become a wife, I must be challenged and proven in relationships with loyalty, trust,dedication and be able to submit to all my authorities NOW.
-To get to the place where the opinions of men don't matter, he first has to let people use and abuse me and see how I handle it
-To become a millionaire, he must first see how I can budget a monthly salary,decipher between needs and wants or when sacrifice is needed
-To become a leader, I must be able to first take some pressure from others(which I am experiencing now), stand up for others, get lied on, help others when it's not convenient for me and even do the word of God even when it does not make any sense.For the bible tells us in 1 Corinthians 1:27"But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;...."
So tonight, whatever God has you to go or going through now, you and I need to realize its not a hop and skip away.THERE IS A PROCESS WE MUST GO THROUGH. I live and dwell on the fact that my life is no longer mine and I must say YES to his will even when it hurts and let him take me through whatever HE wants. Don't believe as well that he will let you go through alone, there are people he has out there to assist us and if you don't have anyone, ask him and he will begin to place the right people in your life to help you, just as HE did for me.

So if you have given him the key and keep taking it back because you dont like the way things are going, give it back to him just tell right now "NEVERTHELESS, NOT MY WILL BE DONE, BUT YOUR WILL."(luke 22:42). All he wants is a yes from you and I.I have decided to say yes now what about you?

If you have questionsor need to talk, email me at ladylorneka@gmail.com